Thanks for your kind comments and prayers. I have been feeling them already and know that there is nothing I need to fear.
This morning I called the doctor on call and it happened to by my doctor. I told her that I woke up during the night with anxiety and heartburn and she asked if the anxiety had something to do with the ultrasound findings and I started crying. How I can cry on the phone to someone I barely know is beyond me, but oh well.
She reasurred me that both the signs will most likely go away in a few weeks. I made it clear to her again that we'll be keeping the baby no matter what and she said that the second ultrasound will just be a second set of eyes looking closer, checking to see that there is nothing wrong with the heart - so we can prepare, if say, there needs to be a specialist at the delivery or something. So I agreed that I'm fine with doing the second ultasound if that's what we are looking into.
I feel like I'm going to need to be very clear about what is acceptable in terms of testing and everything. It's hard feeling like I have to defend why we won't do an amnioscentisis. It's hard telling your own doctor that you're keeping your baby no matter what. Seriously? How about life is precious no matter what?
Maybe I will show my doctor that there are people out there who value life no matter what.
Thanks for your continued prayers, I appreciate them so much!
You will DEFINITELY be an amazing witness to your doctor regarding the value of life you place on each person no matter how big or small!
ReplyDeleteIt does seem like a good idea to prepare. And maybe there are books to read about raising children with Down's syndrome? For these reasons also it is good to have the 2nd ultrasound. Your doctor doesn't sound like she's pushing you at all, that is great. I mean, I think docs have to keep their feelings out of it, they have protocols to follow with such things. Hugs! This is a tough time, but you will come out of it stronger.
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