We're all still here, just really busy.
Yesterday was a hard day for so many people and I want you all to know that you were in my thoughts and prayers. We prayed our rosary last night and I included in the intentions all of those waiting to be mothers. It is so hard to be where you are. And there is NOTHING to say that can help take the pain of waiting away. I have been there, and so many of us bloggers have been there too. God is so near to the weary and brokenhearted. I pray that He holds you close, and makes His presence known to you especially when He seems so far away. Blessed Mother, pray for us!
Monday, May 13, 2013
Saturday, April 20, 2013
Sleep is Happening!
Our little wee one is doing surprisingly well with sleep training thus far. We actually started last night instead of Thursday night like we planned. She went to bed fine without her paci, but that happens sometimes, so we still weren't sure what to expect throughout the night. Her first waking was around 4:30am. That's much later than normal. I think it's because we've been increasing the ounces in her bottles to 6 each (so 5 bottles during the day 6 oz each) and her belly was full.
I went in after the first 3 minutes and rubber her back and shushed her while trying to cover her with her swaddle a little. Then I left. She was still crying, but it wasn't horrible. We have a video monitor, so we turned the sound down and just watched her to keep an eye on her. I just LOVE the video monitors. Anyway, since she was still crying, I waited 5 minutes before returning again. I tried settling her again, and left, that was the last time I needed to go back in. She fell asleep after only 2 checks!!
That wasn't the end of it though. She woke a couple more times after that, but each time I only had to go in once. I didn't return for the 5 minute check because it seemed as if right as I was about to she would have more of a whine cry than a true come-and-help-me cry. Around 6 am, she woke up crying again, but we didn't go in at all. No 3 minute check. She fussed for a LONG time for that waking though though. But again, it was never a continuous come-and-help-me cry so we kept holding off because we felt like at any minute she could fall asleep and if we went in we might interrupt her as she was finally learning how to sooth herself back to sleep. Good thing we waited, because she eventually quieted and had fallen asleep. How rewarding it is to see her eventually sleep without any external help!
Right now she's napping. We are hoping to keep her paci out of naptime, too. So far so good. She went for her nap at 9 am and fussed for about 8 minutes or so, but nothing that required me to check in on her. It usually isn't the initial falling asleep that causes problems, it more the mid-sleep wakings requiring the replacement of the pacifier that are trouble. She hasn't woke from her nap yet, so I'm hopeful she could go the whole nap with no intervention! Praise the Lord!!!
First night of sleep training and one nap down. Who knows how many more to go. I am so thankful we took the leap and started this. It hasn't been nearly as bad as I imagined it to be and G seems to be picking it up slowly but surely. Thank you for your advice, thoughts and prayers. Will update more later!
I went in after the first 3 minutes and rubber her back and shushed her while trying to cover her with her swaddle a little. Then I left. She was still crying, but it wasn't horrible. We have a video monitor, so we turned the sound down and just watched her to keep an eye on her. I just LOVE the video monitors. Anyway, since she was still crying, I waited 5 minutes before returning again. I tried settling her again, and left, that was the last time I needed to go back in. She fell asleep after only 2 checks!!
That wasn't the end of it though. She woke a couple more times after that, but each time I only had to go in once. I didn't return for the 5 minute check because it seemed as if right as I was about to she would have more of a whine cry than a true come-and-help-me cry. Around 6 am, she woke up crying again, but we didn't go in at all. No 3 minute check. She fussed for a LONG time for that waking though though. But again, it was never a continuous come-and-help-me cry so we kept holding off because we felt like at any minute she could fall asleep and if we went in we might interrupt her as she was finally learning how to sooth herself back to sleep. Good thing we waited, because she eventually quieted and had fallen asleep. How rewarding it is to see her eventually sleep without any external help!
Right now she's napping. We are hoping to keep her paci out of naptime, too. So far so good. She went for her nap at 9 am and fussed for about 8 minutes or so, but nothing that required me to check in on her. It usually isn't the initial falling asleep that causes problems, it more the mid-sleep wakings requiring the replacement of the pacifier that are trouble. She hasn't woke from her nap yet, so I'm hopeful she could go the whole nap with no intervention! Praise the Lord!!!
First night of sleep training and one nap down. Who knows how many more to go. I am so thankful we took the leap and started this. It hasn't been nearly as bad as I imagined it to be and G seems to be picking it up slowly but surely. Thank you for your advice, thoughts and prayers. Will update more later!
Monday, April 15, 2013
Successful Sleep Trainers, Please Advise
What's been goin' on over here? Lots of talk about sleep training sweet G. We plan to embark on the adventure this weekend and I hope I come out on the other side as a well-rested mommy with a happy, equally well-rested little girl. G is 4.5 months right now, so we are hoping this age is okay to begin sleep training. Please say yes.
We have successfully eliminated one of her two nighttime feedings from a bottle and now she only gets about 4 oz at night. Not much at all. So, right now we're eliminating an ounce each night from the remaining bottle and that alone may help her sleep better once it's cut out completely.
The only other things that seem to be getting in the way of her sleeping through the night are her associations with being swaddled and having her pacifier replaced multiple times each night and occasionally during naps. It isn't horrible, but it's an association I do not want to continue much longer. She is able to fall asleep without our help, in her crib in her own room, but she almost always needs to be swaddled in her swaddle bag with her pacifier. Once the paci falls out, she can usually sleep fine until she stirs and realizes her paci is missing.
I've been more interested in sleep training than my husband, but I have a strong feeling that I'm going to be the weak one when we're actually carrying it out. We plan to start Thursday night.
I'm hopeful that G will learn to fall asleep and stay asleep without her pacifier, but at the same time I'm nervous. How long will it take her? Will she cry so much and so forcefully that I won't be able to take it? I don't want to give in and replace her pacifier, or the whole training process will be worthless. I'm praying that we can remain strong!
For those of you who have tried sleep training and found it to be successful, do you have any insights, advice or stories that would be helpful? If so, please share! Oh, and please no judgement.
We have successfully eliminated one of her two nighttime feedings from a bottle and now she only gets about 4 oz at night. Not much at all. So, right now we're eliminating an ounce each night from the remaining bottle and that alone may help her sleep better once it's cut out completely.
The only other things that seem to be getting in the way of her sleeping through the night are her associations with being swaddled and having her pacifier replaced multiple times each night and occasionally during naps. It isn't horrible, but it's an association I do not want to continue much longer. She is able to fall asleep without our help, in her crib in her own room, but she almost always needs to be swaddled in her swaddle bag with her pacifier. Once the paci falls out, she can usually sleep fine until she stirs and realizes her paci is missing.
I've been more interested in sleep training than my husband, but I have a strong feeling that I'm going to be the weak one when we're actually carrying it out. We plan to start Thursday night.
I'm hopeful that G will learn to fall asleep and stay asleep without her pacifier, but at the same time I'm nervous. How long will it take her? Will she cry so much and so forcefully that I won't be able to take it? I don't want to give in and replace her pacifier, or the whole training process will be worthless. I'm praying that we can remain strong!
For those of you who have tried sleep training and found it to be successful, do you have any insights, advice or stories that would be helpful? If so, please share! Oh, and please no judgement.
Saturday, April 13, 2013
100th Post!
Was just doing some housecleaning on my blog. Since I'm still not comfortable with people IRL stumbling upon this blog, I have been removing the photos from it. There weren't that many anyway, so it didn't take long. I may end up going private soon, I'm not sure. I do want to still share photos with my long time readers and think a private blog may be the way to go. We'll see.
Anyway, upon doing said housecleaning, I noticed I had 99 posts published thus far! Naturally, I couldn't leave without posting my 100th post!! So, here we are!
It's so hard to believe that I started this blog in 2011 and here I am in 2013, still goin' strong. I feel a little bad about not letting on to people IRL about this gem of a blog, but not bad enough to share it with them. So, dear readers, consider yourselves the lucky ones!! ;) You get to read all about lil' old me and my daily happenings. Aren't you so happy? hehe
Friday, April 12, 2013
An Urgent Read
This post is about the Gosnell trial that the media is not covering. The link below urges us to spread the word ourselves and not wait for the media to cover it. I love that we bloggers have our own mass media, so please, please share the link below with your readers. Some of them may not have heard anything about this case, and who can blame them since the media is not doing their job covering it.
And let's all pray that this story will convert the hearts of all those who are involved with the abortion industry. God, please have mercy on us!
http://www.catholicvote.org/dont-wait-for-the-media-to-cover-gosnell-do-it-yourself/
And let's all pray that this story will convert the hearts of all those who are involved with the abortion industry. God, please have mercy on us!
http://www.catholicvote.org/dont-wait-for-the-media-to-cover-gosnell-do-it-yourself/
One of Those Days
You know how I mentioned making this place a blessing to those who read this? Well, this post might not be that kind of post. I really want to be positive here, but there is so much bothering me and I just can't ignore it. I need an outlet, so here I am. Today it's raining out and I'm so SO tired of the cold dreary weather of this New England state of mine. UGH. I want to move so badly to a warm southern state.
My husband has been putting in mandatory overtime at his job. Good problem to have in this economy, I guess, but it's been so hard having to treat every Saturday like another weekday. Yup, Saturdays are required work days and have been since about February and there is no end date to this madness. Luckily he only needs to put in at least 4 hours and no more than 8 on each Saturday, but still. Most weekends it's been closer to 8 than not and I am so tired of it.
G has been super fussy all day. Currently she is awake in her crib, and she still has about an hour left to her naptime. We'll see how this one goes. Normally, I can't complain in this department. She is on a pretty good nap/sleep routine and I am not sure how that happened since I used to highly dislike schedules myself. I think she can tell when mommy is stressed because usually if her schedule is stable, she's pretty content for the most part.
I'm so upset, angry and disappointed with my siblings. They both currently live with their respective boy/girlfriends and it has been grating on me for a while now. I feel like I'm mourning the loss of the family I wish I could have come from, if that makes sense. All families have problems, I know, but I feel like I'm surrounded by extended family that are all church-going good example people.
Well, except for one certain extended family member. Not sure if you recall, but the person who I couldn't talk to during my pregnancy. Well, I tried to reconcile with her and that was a huge mistake. I think I had a moment of weakness, or was bored or something and decided, "I'm feeling fine now, I can handle reaching out to her, let me just shoot her a quick email apologizing and leave it in God's hands." I don't really know what I apologized for, I didn't do anything wrong. I just asked her to stop calling and texting me because her last email really upset me. Well, I guess I did way more than that. Including, as she claims, I caused to some extent her miscarriage. Can you BELIEVE anyone would have the audacity to even hint that someone else caused their miscarriage? To some extent, I kind of saw it coming. She is just that kind of person. She already has two children (not that I'm implying at all that this lessens the pain of miscarriage) and couldn't even be happy for me when I announced my pregnancy to her. Once she knew what doctor I was seeing she jumped all over it and sent me long intrusive emails about my care. I hadn't even been talking with her much before all this, and now she wants personal details about my fertility? Oh and by the way, congratulations, she wrote along with her thousands of questions for me. So I did what any sane person would do and I limited contact with her and she apparently blew a big fuse at that. Meanwhile, I had NO clue she was pregnant at the time, and now she is blaming me for her miscarrying. She hopes I can deal with the "irreversible consequences of my actions". Ahh she makes me want to scream!!! I had to hold myself back from sending her a very opinionated letter in return. I haven't given up on the thought of writing her a letter, but I'm more interested in talking to her in person. It's funny how easy it is to write things to someone, but saying them straight to the persons face is not so simple. I highly doubt she would have accused me of her miscarriage straight to my face, but you never know.
Let's see, what else. Oh. The whole blogging thing. So, I've been wanting to start a more public blog. I've also been not wanting anyone from RL to stumble upon this one, and I worry with pics of G that they could recognize her and also read stuff I don't want them to (take the above paragraph, for example). So, why do I want to have a more public blog when I don't even like Facebook? I'm still trying to figure that out. I've been trying to think of a name for this new blog, if I ever start it, but nothing has seemed right.
My husband and I have been talking about the possibility of relocating. I hate the winters here and his job is getting out-of-control busy. We have been talking about the Dallas area. Anyone from around there than would like to share how they like it? My husband works as an engineer and is hopeful that there will be plenty of job opportunities in that area. The thought of selling our house makes me dizzy, but I can't get the thought of moving and Dallas out of my head. Is it a sign that God is calling us to leave all my family that live around here and venture out on our own? I'm still not completely sure, but it does kind of sound exciting.
Time to check the wood stove. Remember that thing? Yeah, we're still using it. It's mid April, people! What is going on here?
My husband has been putting in mandatory overtime at his job. Good problem to have in this economy, I guess, but it's been so hard having to treat every Saturday like another weekday. Yup, Saturdays are required work days and have been since about February and there is no end date to this madness. Luckily he only needs to put in at least 4 hours and no more than 8 on each Saturday, but still. Most weekends it's been closer to 8 than not and I am so tired of it.
G has been super fussy all day. Currently she is awake in her crib, and she still has about an hour left to her naptime. We'll see how this one goes. Normally, I can't complain in this department. She is on a pretty good nap/sleep routine and I am not sure how that happened since I used to highly dislike schedules myself. I think she can tell when mommy is stressed because usually if her schedule is stable, she's pretty content for the most part.
I'm so upset, angry and disappointed with my siblings. They both currently live with their respective boy/girlfriends and it has been grating on me for a while now. I feel like I'm mourning the loss of the family I wish I could have come from, if that makes sense. All families have problems, I know, but I feel like I'm surrounded by extended family that are all church-going good example people.
Well, except for one certain extended family member. Not sure if you recall, but the person who I couldn't talk to during my pregnancy. Well, I tried to reconcile with her and that was a huge mistake. I think I had a moment of weakness, or was bored or something and decided, "I'm feeling fine now, I can handle reaching out to her, let me just shoot her a quick email apologizing and leave it in God's hands." I don't really know what I apologized for, I didn't do anything wrong. I just asked her to stop calling and texting me because her last email really upset me. Well, I guess I did way more than that. Including, as she claims, I caused to some extent her miscarriage. Can you BELIEVE anyone would have the audacity to even hint that someone else caused their miscarriage? To some extent, I kind of saw it coming. She is just that kind of person. She already has two children (not that I'm implying at all that this lessens the pain of miscarriage) and couldn't even be happy for me when I announced my pregnancy to her. Once she knew what doctor I was seeing she jumped all over it and sent me long intrusive emails about my care. I hadn't even been talking with her much before all this, and now she wants personal details about my fertility? Oh and by the way, congratulations, she wrote along with her thousands of questions for me. So I did what any sane person would do and I limited contact with her and she apparently blew a big fuse at that. Meanwhile, I had NO clue she was pregnant at the time, and now she is blaming me for her miscarrying. She hopes I can deal with the "irreversible consequences of my actions". Ahh she makes me want to scream!!! I had to hold myself back from sending her a very opinionated letter in return. I haven't given up on the thought of writing her a letter, but I'm more interested in talking to her in person. It's funny how easy it is to write things to someone, but saying them straight to the persons face is not so simple. I highly doubt she would have accused me of her miscarriage straight to my face, but you never know.
Let's see, what else. Oh. The whole blogging thing. So, I've been wanting to start a more public blog. I've also been not wanting anyone from RL to stumble upon this one, and I worry with pics of G that they could recognize her and also read stuff I don't want them to (take the above paragraph, for example). So, why do I want to have a more public blog when I don't even like Facebook? I'm still trying to figure that out. I've been trying to think of a name for this new blog, if I ever start it, but nothing has seemed right.
My husband and I have been talking about the possibility of relocating. I hate the winters here and his job is getting out-of-control busy. We have been talking about the Dallas area. Anyone from around there than would like to share how they like it? My husband works as an engineer and is hopeful that there will be plenty of job opportunities in that area. The thought of selling our house makes me dizzy, but I can't get the thought of moving and Dallas out of my head. Is it a sign that God is calling us to leave all my family that live around here and venture out on our own? I'm still not completely sure, but it does kind of sound exciting.
Time to check the wood stove. Remember that thing? Yeah, we're still using it. It's mid April, people! What is going on here?
Thursday, April 11, 2013
Here to Stay
So, I've decided to keep this blog and not move. I know, that didn't last long at all. I guess that's just how I roll these days. :)
I do want to make this blog a place of documenting my daily thoughts and happenings, much like before, only now there will be occasional pics of the little one. I have to be honest here, because what else is my blog if not honest? I can remember how I felt before conceiving G, but I no longer can feel those same feelings. I guess that's good, right, because I have a child now, so I shouldn't be feeling those same feelings anymore. But more to the point is that I feel like I am healed of the heartache and sadness that went along with waiting. Thanks be to God.
I want to make this place a place of rejoicing in God's wonderful gifts. And not just G, though she is our biggest wonderful gift. But there are so many small gifts that God gives me each day that I need and want to document here. I want to grow in gratitude and grace and feel called to share it with anyone who is reading!
I'm sure I will still document the hard things and seek the wise counsel of those who read this, but hopefully I can make this blog more of a blessing to those who read it. I hope you can come away from reading here a little more peace-filled and hopeful.
I do want to make this blog a place of documenting my daily thoughts and happenings, much like before, only now there will be occasional pics of the little one. I have to be honest here, because what else is my blog if not honest? I can remember how I felt before conceiving G, but I no longer can feel those same feelings. I guess that's good, right, because I have a child now, so I shouldn't be feeling those same feelings anymore. But more to the point is that I feel like I am healed of the heartache and sadness that went along with waiting. Thanks be to God.
I want to make this place a place of rejoicing in God's wonderful gifts. And not just G, though she is our biggest wonderful gift. But there are so many small gifts that God gives me each day that I need and want to document here. I want to grow in gratitude and grace and feel called to share it with anyone who is reading!
I'm sure I will still document the hard things and seek the wise counsel of those who read this, but hopefully I can make this blog more of a blessing to those who read it. I hope you can come away from reading here a little more peace-filled and hopeful.
Saturday, April 6, 2013
New Blog?
G is now four months old and I am still in shock. She is full of personality and is getting super strong. She wiggles and squirms all over the place. Giving her a bottle is a task and a half, I can't imagine breastfeeding this little squiggle worm!
Sorry I dropped off the face of the internet for a while there. I have been struggling to make it through winter and it looks like we're finally getting some nicer spring weather coming. I've also been giving lots of thought to making a new blog. Seems like that's the current trend out there now, too. I would like to have a more public blog and not share the thoughts/feelings of this blog with people who know me IRL.
My email address is my full name, so I would rather not post that here. How can I give y'all my new blog name ? I haven't even started a new blog yet. But I want to and I want to let those who'd like to follow me know where I'm at.
My Mom is coming over soon to help me cut out a pattern for a skirt I'm making. G is napping now, so I better move along. More soon.
Monday, January 28, 2013
Live in the Moment
Why is it so hard to live in the moment? Why do I always seem to look forward to the next thing, waiting for things to be brighter and happier? Yesterday I had a great day. Today, I feel like crying. I am wondering more and more if I need to go back on my anxiety medication.
The homily at Mass yesterday got me thinking about how I don't live in the moment very well. The deacon told a story about a woman who was first "dying to graduate high school" then "dying to get married" then, "dying for the kids to grow up so she could go back to work" and then, yes, you guessed it, she was just plain "dying". He said that it was on her death bed that she realized she never really "lived each day". So now I wonder, why is it SO hard to live in the moment?
I came home from Mass and went to my little daughter, who was crying when I walked in the door. My husband stayed home with her and we've been going to different Mass times since she was born. I think we'll start going all three of us soon. ANYWAY, I went straight to sweet G and picked her up and soaked in all her crying, red face and all, and just told my honey how much I love her. I really wanted to live the moment. The crying, the uncertainty and all. Everything. I don't want to wish any of it away for an easier time with her anymore. I don't even want to wish the many many bottle that pile up in our kitchen away. I don't want to wish the uncertain nap times, feeding times or even the formula that I have to dump out because G didn't want to finish that last 1 1/2 oz. and the hour of expiration has come. I don't want to wish even that away for some easier, cleaner, less busy time. There will always be things that make me uncomfortable, I think that's just life. Now to learn to embrace this beautiful, messy life and live each moment to the fullest.
Friday, January 25, 2013
It's Back
My period, that is. I never planned on having it come so soon after giving birth. Ah, the joys of bottle feeding.
Thankfully it's very light and not painful. Hmm. It just dawned on me that this may not be considered my first real period. Anyone have any information on how you'll know when it's back?
I still have moments where I mourn not breastfeeding G. Getting my period back is definitely one of those moments. Not to mention, the entering in of thoughts like, will we be able to conceive again? Was looking forward to not wondering that for at least a good year. Now the question will stare me in the face again each month. I thought having a baby would completely erase those thoughts, but I guess they are normal for someone who has waited.
I'm trying so hard to be grateful and live in the moment. I feel determined to live my life differently. God has blessed me with a daughter. He has heard the prayer of my heart. I must sing of His goodness forever!!!
Thankfully it's very light and not painful. Hmm. It just dawned on me that this may not be considered my first real period. Anyone have any information on how you'll know when it's back?
I still have moments where I mourn not breastfeeding G. Getting my period back is definitely one of those moments. Not to mention, the entering in of thoughts like, will we be able to conceive again? Was looking forward to not wondering that for at least a good year. Now the question will stare me in the face again each month. I thought having a baby would completely erase those thoughts, but I guess they are normal for someone who has waited.
I'm trying so hard to be grateful and live in the moment. I feel determined to live my life differently. God has blessed me with a daughter. He has heard the prayer of my heart. I must sing of His goodness forever!!!
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
How things are going
I have been meaning to update you all on how things have been going. Well, breastfeeding is not going. At all. I stopped pumping and have finally been feeling peace about it. It was hard this past weekend though, because we had to switch formulas. G is not tolerating the cow's milk in the formula. It's no big surprise, though, since I have been avoiding dairy for almost two years now and my husband and his whole family are lactose intolerant. I guess our house will officially be a dairy free household.
When we decided to switch to a different formula, all my feelings of guilt surrounding not breastfeeding resurfaced. It was a rough weekend, but we all made it through and now G seems to be very happy with her new formula. I feel like I'm finally experiencing what a true newborn acts like. She naps on and off all day now, and eats happily. She wasn't colic-y before, but she seemed to need consoling all.the.time. Some days she wouldn't nap at all and when she did, she would wake at the slightest noise. Now I think that was all due to her being in pain from the dairy. She is napping in the same room as me now, and my typing is not waking her up. Praise the Lord.
It's hard to believe she is seven weeks now. Feb. 9th we have her two month appointment. She has been gaining weight wonderfully. At her one month she was 9 lbs and 1oz, and 21.5 inches long! My little sweetheart is getting so big already! In fact, I've had to put some of her clothes away in bags already because they're too small!
We also had her baptism in early January. It was a wonderful day and she slept through the whole ceremony! We weren't sure how she'd do, so we put some milicon (infant gas drops) into her bottle. I think that may have helped, because she was soundly sleeping and looked so peaceful.
I've been feeling better emotionally, too. Thank you all for your prayers for us! I hope to be better at updating on how we're doing now that I have some time during her naps.
When we decided to switch to a different formula, all my feelings of guilt surrounding not breastfeeding resurfaced. It was a rough weekend, but we all made it through and now G seems to be very happy with her new formula. I feel like I'm finally experiencing what a true newborn acts like. She naps on and off all day now, and eats happily. She wasn't colic-y before, but she seemed to need consoling all.the.time. Some days she wouldn't nap at all and when she did, she would wake at the slightest noise. Now I think that was all due to her being in pain from the dairy. She is napping in the same room as me now, and my typing is not waking her up. Praise the Lord.
It's hard to believe she is seven weeks now. Feb. 9th we have her two month appointment. She has been gaining weight wonderfully. At her one month she was 9 lbs and 1oz, and 21.5 inches long! My little sweetheart is getting so big already! In fact, I've had to put some of her clothes away in bags already because they're too small!
We also had her baptism in early January. It was a wonderful day and she slept through the whole ceremony! We weren't sure how she'd do, so we put some milicon (infant gas drops) into her bottle. I think that may have helped, because she was soundly sleeping and looked so peaceful.
I've been feeling better emotionally, too. Thank you all for your prayers for us! I hope to be better at updating on how we're doing now that I have some time during her naps.
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
Thursday, December 20, 2012
More on breastfeeding
Thanks for the encouragement, ladies. The LC wants me to pump 8 times a day and I just started to take a supplement, More Milk Special Blend from W.hole Foods, per recommendation. She thinks G is used to an instant reward with the bottle and that's why she's getting frustrated at the breast. My nipples are kind of flat, so we'd been using a shield to draw them out, and pumping is helping too. The LC wants me to continue to try to put her to the breast but not if it's making both her and me too upset.
So far, putting her to the breast is not going well. On top of that, I couldn't make myself get up last night to pump. I really feel like I'm losing the desire to breastfeed. Sometimes I feel like my difficulty with breastfeeding is hurting my pride. I guess that's not a bad thing, though. I need to learn more humilty. It's just that I've always prefered the natural way to anything. And especially with my baby. Having to give her formula has been a struggle, and I feel like I'm not living up to my desire to give her a "natural lifestyle", if that makes any sense. Ugh. Plus, pumping so often is so tiring, especially when I have no idea if what I'm doing is even going to help/work. I know breastfeeding would be equally as tiring, but at least then I'd feel like I was moving towards my goal, not away from it, with the formula. We have been able to give her my pumped milk in a bottle though, so I am grateful for that.
Yesterday my aunt came over and was sharing with me her stories of breastfeeding. She has six kids and breastfeeding was a struggle with them all. I couldn't believe it! She said she always felt like she didn't have enough milk and that it was always difficult to breastfeed, getting infections and so on. The she told me something kind of random. She said that St. Therese's mother was unable to breastfeed St. Therese. She had to send Therese to a wet nurse for the first couple years of her life. I never knew that. I love St. Therese and so hearing that story made me feel better. Maybe I'm not such a failure after all.
Speaking of St. Therese, I had just been thinking of her the night before when I was up pumping. I was feeling so tired doing either the midnight or the 3am pump, and my mind kind of wandered to something I read before of Therese's life. When she was in the convent, she was unable to practice the physical mortifications that the other nuns in her convent were doing. She would get sick when she would do them, and finally recognized that the physical mortifications was not God's will for her. And so, to everyone else, she appeared to not be anything special, I mean, she wasn't even doing the outward signs of holiness that the other nuns were practicing, so how holy could she really be in other's eyes? But God saw her heart and had a different path to holiness for Therese. And then I thought about how Sr. Genevieve told Therese to "serve God with peace and joy, for our God is a God of peace and love". Then she knew that her vocation was to love, and to serve God not through physical mortifications but through small acts of great love! All of this seemed to fit to my life right now. I feel like I hold breastfeeding up as the best, the measure of good mothering, and even the holier thing I could be doing. With all the frustration and difficulty I feel like I'm having, I wondered maybe this isn't God's path for me. I feel peace giving a bottle, maybe that is my path. Maybe some of my extended family will judge me, but people judged Therese too, so maybe it's not really that bad.
And maybe all of this won't even matter in a couple weeks. Maybe G will get the hang of it and maybe I'll become more confident and comfortable. My breast milk may increase and maybe there won't be any trouble in a few more weeks. I guess I just don't know if I have it in me to continue. And sometimes that makes me feel like a lazy failure. On a good day, I feel like maybe this isn't right for me and I don't need to be ashamed or feel guilty. My daughter is eating and that's all that's important. I don't know how good it is for her to have a stressed out mommy who is pushing and pushing for breastfeeding. Right now I haven't needed to go back onto my anti-anxiety meds that I stopped at the third trimester, and I really don't want to have to start them again over this. Plus, I probably wouldn't be able to breastfeed while taking a medication anyway. My midwife didn't see a problem with breastfeeding while on a low dose of med, but my doctor does not recommend it.
I'm realizing this post is so jumbled! Thanks for reading this far, and hopefully it wasn't too hard to follow my thoughts. Thank you ladies for your encouragement and support. I'm not giving up pumping completely, I may just drop the late night pump sessions. And maybe I will just bottle feed the breast milk. I feel kind of sad though - will G and I not bond if I give up on her feeding at the breast? I just want the very best for her, but I also recognize that I need to do whats best for me too, because my mood and emotional state directly affect her in a big way, too. Well, I'm going to post this now, I don't know how much time I have before the wee one wakes up. Thank you all for sharing your experiences and for the encouragement and reminding me I'm not a failure. You guys are great! Thanks for reading and for your help and prayers.
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
Needing help
Breastfeeding is not going well. I am currently pumping as I write this, thanks to a hands free pumping bra. G doesn't do well at the breast, and I believe it's due to our supplementing her early on. I feel like a failure. I hate having her cry and then work herself up to a full blow panic cry when she's at the breast. We've been having some luck with using a nipple shield, but it's so cumbersome and she always manages to flip it off, which frustrates me. So far, I've met with a lactation consultant, been to two LLL meetings, had numerous talks with people who all have various opinions of what I should be doing to make it work. And it's so. frustrating. Starting last night at midnight, I've been trying to pump every three hours. Between that and feeding G a bottle, I didn't get much sleep at all. I hate to complain, but I don't know what to do. Should I quit? I feel so at peace with just giving her the bottle, but only because it's peaceful doing it, and she actually eats. Otherwise, I would want to do breastfeeding because it's definitely healthier and overall better for her.
Please say prayers for me. Should I keep pressing on?
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
She is here!
So............as I write this, my daughter is sleeping in our house, in her little pack n play! Yes, that's right, my baby is here!!!
She has already changed so much in the past week. I need to get some more recent photos of her up, because these above are all from the hospital, as I'm sure you can tell.
Wow. We are enjoying our little bundle so much! Most of the time, she is so super relaxed. She will sleep with her arms up by her head and our pediatrician said that's a sign of a content baby. Praise God. She is healthy, strong, has a great set of lungs - ha! and is just so so so cute. I know I'm her mother, of course I will say that! But truly, she is like a little doll.
It's been a bit of a bumpy road with breastfeeding, though. I don't think my milk has fully come in and so we've been supplementing with formula because she lost some weight after the birth. It's been a real adjustment hormone-wise, too. I've found myself crying for no real reasons. So many things about the past week are in my heart and on my mind, they are sentimental things and I get emotional just thinking about them. For example, the way my husband loves our daughter is just mind. blowing. I feel like I am falling more and more in a deeper love for him when I see how he just adores little G. I'm tearing up right now! And more along those lines. I had as natural of a birth as possible and if it weren't for my husband coaching me through each contraction, I would have never been able to do it. My labor was long and sloooow. I had a pushing phase of around 5.5 hours, with a total labor time (counting when I needed to work and concentrate through consistent contractions, labor from start to end (48?) hours. Sunday night at 9pm until tuesday 5pm!. The contractions during pushing phase were so far apart -about 6-7 min. apart , that I wasn't making much progress pushing her out. I was given PIT towards the end and that helped a lot, and finally she was born. I also had an episiotomy, but I did not care at that point! I will write about the birth in more detail, but that is the main overview!
Thank you so much for your prayers. To my prayer buddy, thank you! Your prayers for my safe and healthy, natural delivery were very much appreciated! Thank you for your continued prayers for our little family. Please pray I can have breastfeeding success!
Thank you, God, and thank you to all my readers for your prayers! Sweet G is here in major part due to your prayers, I have no doubt about it! More pictures to follow, and you'll see what I mean about how she has already changed - in only one week! I can't believe pregnancy and labor/delivery is over. This may sound weird, but it makes me sad to think they are over. So many supportive people from my husband to my midwife made this possible and I just get so sentimental thinking about it all. I have to tell myself that nothing has ended, but that it is all just beginning!
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
30 Days of Thanksgiving (part 1)
It's hard to believe the month of November and the 30 days of Thanksgiving is almost over. I've thoroughly enjoyed reading the daily updates complete with pictures from those who've been participating in the 30 days of Thanksgiving! There is nothing more contagious than a joyful, thankful heart.
Here is my list for the 30 Days of Thanksgiving:
1. The snow that's gently falling outside today. It is so beautiful and peaceful!
2. My husband. I'm thankful he chose to work from home today. It's so nice having him available, even if it's just to share a funny comment or two. I'm thankful that he is able to get a lot more work done by being away from his office. He has almost zero distractions while at home, except from me of course!
3. Our wood stove, humming along and heating away. So far this season, we have yet to use our electric heat! I just love the coziness of a wood stove, there's nothing else quite like it.
4. The strand of colored lights that I put over our mantle. At night, these lights go on, and oh how I love to look at them! Christmas is less than a month away!
5. All you blogging ladies. Your prayers, encouragement, understanding and your simple presence in my life. Thank you for welcoming me into this wonderfully prayerful community! I don't know if I would be where I am right now if I hadn't stumbled across this little corner of the internet.
6. My Grandma in heaven. Thank you for always praying for us. I have so many wonderful memories of you and am so thankful for the holy and loving life you led.
7. The sweet kicks of my baby. Who am I to be so blessed to be a mother? Words simply cannot express the wonderment and awe I have at being pregnant. Me. A mother. A mother to my daughter. Tears fill my eyes just thinking about it all.
8. Confession. Thank you Jesus, for the sacrament of Confession! I always have to write my sins on a piece of paper so I am not worried that I left anything out. There's nothing like tossing that sheet of paper into our wood stove after returning home from Confession. Thank you, Jesus, for giving us all so many ways to grow closer to you and to remain in the state of grace.
9. Humidifiers in the winter. When you live in New England, and more especially, when you own a wood stove, you really cannot live without these water misting gems.
10. My lovely home. Our house is a cape. It's not huge, but it's cozy and beautiful. We bought when the interest rates were super low (maybe they still are?) and if it weren't for that, we may still be renting. The low interest rate allowed us to afford to sign up for a mortgage. God and St. Joseph's hand were in it through the whole process. I really cannot think up or picture a better house than the one we have!
11. My Mom. She just emailed me to tell me she has the pack n' play that she bought for baby bear in her car and she'll be bringing it over tonight! She said, "I think it'll be great for you! (Tell baby bear she's going to like it!)" hehe I am so blessed to have a Mom who is so loving, generous and oh so excited to be a Grandma.
12. Water. This is something I think I take for granted way too often. I have this mega huge water jug, and by mega huge, I mean 64 oz.. huge! And I have it with me almost all the time. I started drinking lots of water when I found out I was pregnant and I haven't stopped since. This jug of mine makes drinking lots of water really easy. I'm guess I'm really thankful for both water and my water jug. :)
13. My extended family. I come from a small immediate family, but I have a very large extended family. I have a few cousins my age who are like sisters to me and we have been best friends our whole lives. I often take this for granted and sometimes I think, doesn't everyone have cousins they're close with? Then I remind myself to be thankful for my wonderful, faith-filled extended family.
14. Gluten-free and dairy-free foods. I have no proof of this, but I feel inwardly convinced that the gluten-free and dairy-free diet I have been on has helped make it possible for me to conceive.
15. Along those lines, I am thankful for the Gi.anna C.enter in N.YC. About a year ago, I had my first appointment there and would never want to go anywhere else. The staff is caring, helpful, and prompt. And the doctor there is very knowledgeable, respectful, understanding and a real inspiration for hope. She even called me right back on a Saturday in order to set up an immediate blood draw for me when I discovered a positive pregnancy test. At the same time she called in a script for oral progesterone, just in case, and I had that in my hands the same day. Then, she monitored my progesterone throughout the first and most of the second trimester and made the whole process so easy for me. I cannot thank her and her team enough!
16. My comfy robe. I had been searching for a zip-up robe for a while, and S.ears came to my rescue! A couple weeks ago we purchased a lovely green robe and I have been basking in it's comfort ever since. I love to throw it on over whatever I'm wearing, it's lightweight but warm enough for winter. Sometimes I feel frumpy in it, but my husband has assured me that it's okay that I wear it often! Thank goodness for comfy robes and husbands who like them!
Stay tuned for the second half of 30 Days of Thanksgiving!
Here is my list for the 30 Days of Thanksgiving:
1. The snow that's gently falling outside today. It is so beautiful and peaceful!
2. My husband. I'm thankful he chose to work from home today. It's so nice having him available, even if it's just to share a funny comment or two. I'm thankful that he is able to get a lot more work done by being away from his office. He has almost zero distractions while at home, except from me of course!
3. Our wood stove, humming along and heating away. So far this season, we have yet to use our electric heat! I just love the coziness of a wood stove, there's nothing else quite like it.
4. The strand of colored lights that I put over our mantle. At night, these lights go on, and oh how I love to look at them! Christmas is less than a month away!
5. All you blogging ladies. Your prayers, encouragement, understanding and your simple presence in my life. Thank you for welcoming me into this wonderfully prayerful community! I don't know if I would be where I am right now if I hadn't stumbled across this little corner of the internet.
6. My Grandma in heaven. Thank you for always praying for us. I have so many wonderful memories of you and am so thankful for the holy and loving life you led.
7. The sweet kicks of my baby. Who am I to be so blessed to be a mother? Words simply cannot express the wonderment and awe I have at being pregnant. Me. A mother. A mother to my daughter. Tears fill my eyes just thinking about it all.
8. Confession. Thank you Jesus, for the sacrament of Confession! I always have to write my sins on a piece of paper so I am not worried that I left anything out. There's nothing like tossing that sheet of paper into our wood stove after returning home from Confession. Thank you, Jesus, for giving us all so many ways to grow closer to you and to remain in the state of grace.
9. Humidifiers in the winter. When you live in New England, and more especially, when you own a wood stove, you really cannot live without these water misting gems.
10. My lovely home. Our house is a cape. It's not huge, but it's cozy and beautiful. We bought when the interest rates were super low (maybe they still are?) and if it weren't for that, we may still be renting. The low interest rate allowed us to afford to sign up for a mortgage. God and St. Joseph's hand were in it through the whole process. I really cannot think up or picture a better house than the one we have!
11. My Mom. She just emailed me to tell me she has the pack n' play that she bought for baby bear in her car and she'll be bringing it over tonight! She said, "I think it'll be great for you! (Tell baby bear she's going to like it!)" hehe I am so blessed to have a Mom who is so loving, generous and oh so excited to be a Grandma.
12. Water. This is something I think I take for granted way too often. I have this mega huge water jug, and by mega huge, I mean 64 oz.. huge! And I have it with me almost all the time. I started drinking lots of water when I found out I was pregnant and I haven't stopped since. This jug of mine makes drinking lots of water really easy. I'm guess I'm really thankful for both water and my water jug. :)
13. My extended family. I come from a small immediate family, but I have a very large extended family. I have a few cousins my age who are like sisters to me and we have been best friends our whole lives. I often take this for granted and sometimes I think, doesn't everyone have cousins they're close with? Then I remind myself to be thankful for my wonderful, faith-filled extended family.
14. Gluten-free and dairy-free foods. I have no proof of this, but I feel inwardly convinced that the gluten-free and dairy-free diet I have been on has helped make it possible for me to conceive.
15. Along those lines, I am thankful for the Gi.anna C.enter in N.YC. About a year ago, I had my first appointment there and would never want to go anywhere else. The staff is caring, helpful, and prompt. And the doctor there is very knowledgeable, respectful, understanding and a real inspiration for hope. She even called me right back on a Saturday in order to set up an immediate blood draw for me when I discovered a positive pregnancy test. At the same time she called in a script for oral progesterone, just in case, and I had that in my hands the same day. Then, she monitored my progesterone throughout the first and most of the second trimester and made the whole process so easy for me. I cannot thank her and her team enough!
16. My comfy robe. I had been searching for a zip-up robe for a while, and S.ears came to my rescue! A couple weeks ago we purchased a lovely green robe and I have been basking in it's comfort ever since. I love to throw it on over whatever I'm wearing, it's lightweight but warm enough for winter. Sometimes I feel frumpy in it, but my husband has assured me that it's okay that I wear it often! Thank goodness for comfy robes and husbands who like them!
Stay tuned for the second half of 30 Days of Thanksgiving!
Saturday, November 24, 2012
T-Day and T-Day Weekend!
Happy (belated) Thanksgiving! I hope everyone had a wonderful day filled with loving family and friends and good food. :) We had friends over for an early Thanksgiving dinner and then we went to my parent's house for the remainder of the day. It was nice having our friends come over, it encouraged us to clean the house more than we would have and we (by "we" I mean, my husband, ha!) were able to cook a full Thanksgiving meal and now leftovers fill our fridge. My husband is happy, he loves leftover turkey. We were successful in having a gluten and dairy free meal, too. Basically, we just substituted butter for Earth Balance Buttery Spread, and for the stuffing, we used brown rice bread and made a nice homemade version of Stove Top Stuffing. It was really good! We had pumpkin pie made with almond milk and the best chocolate pudding ever - I still need to get the recipe from my friend. I think she used Carob powder (which is a naturally sweet, naturally non-caffeinated cocoa powder, dairy free chocolate chips, corn starch, vanilla and almond milk. It was so. good. Everything was a success, but man was I exhausted! Just having people over tires me out. I don't mind going to my parents house, but for some reason, I'm feel way overwhelmed when we have company. I keep telling myself, from here on out until after baby arrives, I need to say no to company. I don't want to be rude, but I need to conserve my energy and rest as much as I can when I'm not eating or doing exercises. I have no idea how long my labor will be, or when I'm going to be IN labor, so I want to be well rested at all times.
Today, my husband and I plan to make gingerbread cookies. I'll be able to help and relax when I need to, so I'm not worried about getting too tired. I'm excited. I love the smell and of course the taste of homemade gingerbread cookies!
I have been noticing more frequent and obvious braxton hicks contractions. It helps when I eat something, but this morning I noticed that they were still coming even after I had eaten. I guess they will continue to come and only get stronger, more frequent, and closer together as the days go by. This coming week I will be 39 weeks, so baby could come any day now!
We have been strongly considering the name Gianna for our little one. It's funny because at first, I really really liked it, and my husband had reservations, and now it's switched. My husband is 100% on board with the name and even said, "if we could tell the nurse her name now, I would want to tell her Gianna" and then silly old me over here is all like, but wait, what about Maria or what about Mary? For some reason I've always felt unsure when my husband is super sure. Oh well. Oh, and that reminds me. The name Emma has lost it's charm for my husband, so we've moved on from that one.
Well, that's pretty much all for now. Oh, I should really get a belly shot up here before baby takes up her new residence outside of me! I think I'll ask my husband to do that today.
I hope everyone is having a great weekend! God bless!
Today, my husband and I plan to make gingerbread cookies. I'll be able to help and relax when I need to, so I'm not worried about getting too tired. I'm excited. I love the smell and of course the taste of homemade gingerbread cookies!
I have been noticing more frequent and obvious braxton hicks contractions. It helps when I eat something, but this morning I noticed that they were still coming even after I had eaten. I guess they will continue to come and only get stronger, more frequent, and closer together as the days go by. This coming week I will be 39 weeks, so baby could come any day now!
We have been strongly considering the name Gianna for our little one. It's funny because at first, I really really liked it, and my husband had reservations, and now it's switched. My husband is 100% on board with the name and even said, "if we could tell the nurse her name now, I would want to tell her Gianna" and then silly old me over here is all like, but wait, what about Maria or what about Mary? For some reason I've always felt unsure when my husband is super sure. Oh well. Oh, and that reminds me. The name Emma has lost it's charm for my husband, so we've moved on from that one.
Well, that's pretty much all for now. Oh, I should really get a belly shot up here before baby takes up her new residence outside of me! I think I'll ask my husband to do that today.
I hope everyone is having a great weekend! God bless!
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Thankful
I think it's been nearly a month since my last post. I've enjoyed reading the 30 days of thankfulness that have been on a few of your blogs. Thank you so much for your positive posts, I find myself drawn to them and want to read more! That's when I realized, wow, maybe I should write on my own blog for a change! So, here goes.
I am officially considered full term this week and couldn't be more happy. Thank you, sweet Jesus! I have a midwife appointment today and our last childbirth class (YAY!). My husband and I are both so ready to be finished with the classes, so we'll be very happy after the last class tonight.
Right now, I'm sitting on our living room floor while our wood stove warms the room. Remember that old thing from a year ago? I think I probably wrote about it in every post of mine until Spring. :) Well, it's back in business and working like a charm. In fact, friends of ours are looking into buying a wood stove insert for their own home, they like ours so much. We live in the east coast, and with last year's snow storm in October causing power outages for a week or more, and then this year, with Sandy hitting NY, NJ and CT pretty badly, we are so very thankful that we can always depend on having heat no matter what happens with the electricity. So if you had any question about how I feel towards our wood stove, you can rest assured, I really still LOVE IT!
Speaking of things that are warm, last night, I made homemade chicken vegetable soup. My Grandma had a really simple recipe of just chicken, water, celery, carrots, onion and salt. It's delicious. The key, in my opinion, is to by organic carrots and celery. Then you can leave the skins of the carrots on and add the leaves of the celery to the pot. You really only need to scrub the veggies before you cut them, because they are organic. Oh yeah, and use sea salt, it tastes better and is better for you than table salt.
I got my haircut the other day. I'm really happy I did, because I don't know how long it will be until I can get it cut again, after sweet one arrives. The only downer is that now it's kinda short and falls out of my elastic band when I try to put it up. So I'm using bobby pins for my bangs and stuff like that. Oh well. I'm happy that he cut most of my old highlight out, so now my hair is soft and bouncy because the old processed, highlighted areas are gone. That's great news, but I find myself thinking about highlighting again in the Spring. My heart says "Yes, do it!!" but my head says "No! Be strong and resist the highlights!" :) We shall see which wins out.
Oh my, I can't believe our baby bear will be here so soon. We are as ready as we will ever be, I guess. One thing that has changed many times is the name. Oh, the name. Please say a prayer I will find peace about a name, any name!! Well, not ANY name. You know what I mean. I think I'll need to meet her first and then I'll have peace about her name. I'm still open to suggestions though, so if you've got them, I want them! :)
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
Needing God's Grace
I've heard that you never stop learning about the person you're married to, and that you can always improve the way you relate, communicate and how you love them. Last night I learned a lot about myself, too.
I have a really hard time when my husband expresses his feelings. Obviously, his happy feelings are no problem for me, but when he's sad, hurt or upset by something (especially something I've done), it's like all my reason flies out the window and I become a blubbering mess. I think his feelings scare me. I feel like maybe he is going to stop loving me or maybe it's true and I'm a terrible wife. If he's hurt or sad because of something I've done, I've noticed I go from really scared to angry in like .2 seconds. This of course, makes him feel worse, because now I'm angry at him for his feelings. He then feels "trapped". It's a weird chain of events, but I know I'm the one who needs to work on improving how I relate.
I generally have a pretty strong personality. My husband is really easy going and not much bothers him. He is so patient with me and almost never loses his cool. It seems like I'm the always the one who "brews" the arguments and my poor husband takes it all in stride. I am truly blessed to be his wife and I know he feels blessed to be married to me, too, but I am so far from perfect. Last night, and on other occasions, I have felt like I need to change and grow. We'll soon be welcoming our first born into our home and our world, and it occurred to me that I absolutely cannot prevent my child from sharing her feelings, scary as they may be to me or not. I don't ever want my behavior to scare or make someone feel trapped. And here was my husband, being a mirror to me of who I am. The reflection I saw told me that I need growth, I need to change, and I need God's grace.
We had a wonderful talk, and my husband was clear with me that he feels like he can't tell me for example if he's feeling hurt by me or sad if he feels like he's failed me in some way. He told me when he feels like he can't communicate those feelings to me, it makes him feel trapped and feeling trapped is much worse for him than feeling hurt or sad. Something finally clicked in me and I realized that his initial feelings scare me, but that I need to let him communicate them because he's human and his feelings are valid. Getting mad at his feelings isn't really my honest reaction anyway, so I need to stop showing anger. I loved our talk. We both understand each other better now and hopefully things will go better next time. We don't have a perfect marriage by any means, but honestly, who does? One thing I think we both have is the desire to learn, to grow and to improve ourselves.
I told God last night that I want Him to refine me. I want Him to make me the kind of wife that is prefect for my husband and the kind of mother that is perfect for my children. As I write that, I wonder, gosh is that a tall order, so much to ask God for! But doesn't He call us all to perfection like His Heavenly father is perfect? I know it's through my vocation that I will become holy, and I ultimately want to be a saint. So, that's where I am right now. Out with my old ways of communicating with my husband when he is hurt, sad or disappointed in himself. In with my new way of relating. God, give me the graces to listen without fear or anger to my husband's emotions. Let me be a balm to his soul and let me always remind him that no matter what, I love him and am so blessed to be his wife.
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
Fatigue and Prayers for a friend
I've been feeling fatigue lately and it's taken some getting used to. I think ever since I've stopped the anxiety med I've noticed more fatigue. Maybe that's just a coincidence? I don't know. I have been trying to do the exercises recommended from our birth class, and honestly, if I do anything more (load of laundry, dishes, cooking) I'm pretty much beat and need to rest for the remainder of the day. Oh, and I sleep in pretty late each morning, so you'd think I'm getting enough sleep - unless the sleep I'm getting throughout the night isn't as restful as it used to be. Maybe I need an iron supplement. Is this fatigue normal for the third trimester? My husband wants me to try to do less around the house (what a good man!) but it's so hard for me. I feel the need to do this and get that done and I'm making LISTS all. the. time. My husband comes home to a list of stuff that is crucial (in my mind at least) to get done tonight. So last night he took out the air conditioner in our bedroom, and did a few other things that had been on my brain and now on my list -ha! Thank God for my patient and understanding husband, he actually told me that he is less tired after he comes home from work when he does things that are active, so he doesn't mind the list. He told me that he's like a Labrador Retriever and needs things to keep him busy. I thought that was the cutest thing ever and it made me feel so much better for giving him stuff to do. Hehe I love my Lab.
I am in my eighth month now. All I can say is, praise God! I have so much joy in my heart at the thought of meeting our little one in about two months. I still have moments of worry and fear that come, but they generally don't persist after I talk about them to my husband or write about them here. Praise God for my loving husband and for this wonderful faith-filled community. Our little corner of the internet is so special. I just loved seeing so many posts yesterday about St. Therese on her feast day. God and the saints are truly with us all and that is something so very very special. I'm so thankful I started my own blog just about one year ago. I was inspired by this wonderful blog to seek napro treatment and start my own blog. Speaking of this blogger, please pray for her and her family now - your prayers will be most appreciated!! Have a great week everyone, God bless!
I am in my eighth month now. All I can say is, praise God! I have so much joy in my heart at the thought of meeting our little one in about two months. I still have moments of worry and fear that come, but they generally don't persist after I talk about them to my husband or write about them here. Praise God for my loving husband and for this wonderful faith-filled community. Our little corner of the internet is so special. I just loved seeing so many posts yesterday about St. Therese on her feast day. God and the saints are truly with us all and that is something so very very special. I'm so thankful I started my own blog just about one year ago. I was inspired by this wonderful blog to seek napro treatment and start my own blog. Speaking of this blogger, please pray for her and her family now - your prayers will be most appreciated!! Have a great week everyone, God bless!
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